It's obviously been quite a while since my last blog post. Two and a half months, actually. And I'm sad to say that in that time much of what I've been doing is serving myself. Maybe that's not right, maybe that's being a little too harsh on myself. I wish that was the case, but if I'm being honest with myself it's not. There have been many times when I was growing in my faith, reading my Bible regularly and recognizing and turning over to God parts of my life that were jacked up. That might have been 30% of the time. Then again, 30% might be generous. I've also discovered that I'm still a good actor, cause I've been able to keep the screw-ups from those closest to me. I guess today I got to a point where I realized something had to change, which has happened plenty of times before. This time I decided to do something about it.
I made and acted on a conscious decision to return to reading my Bible every day. That's something I haven't been doing, and I feel that it's a huge part of why my spiritual life has taken a huge nose dive into the ground. I was going to go to 1 John, because it's full of grace and mercy and that was what I felt like I needed. Then I grabbed my Bible and saw that the ribbon-thingy was at the beginning of James. So I read James. And while it wasn't the first place I thought to look, it turned out to be exactly what I needed; especially chapter 4. I was looking for grace; I found it in verse 6 of chapter 4: "But he (God) gives more grace. I humbled myself before God, told him I couldn't do it myself despite all my trying to. And as always, God did something awesome!
